correction

i should clarify that recently i wrote a post about learning the hard way and I started with a story about a dance studio and followed it with examples of people being a nightmare. Just want to clarify here that the dance studio is not an example in keeping with the rest of the post. I was using it as a starting point. Simply that no one there asked me to help but I made assumptions and based on my assumptions I started conversations and that my conversations became complicated. And that the unhappy dawn for ME was that I am unable to properly judge any longer true need from convenience. The story was to illustrate that I need to learn the difference and to stop getting angry - and to stop offering.

The complicate MY life portion simply was that in response to my vmail / emails the owner thought I was offering out of ...not guilt but some sense of obligation vs affection. So I was already mired for lack of better word in a dance I created. I realized that I had already started off in a strange inequity with the owner. For brevity's sake, in the post, I laid the blame on her but in actuality, in the writing, I knew the blame was mine.

I write this now not because something happened but because it occurred to me only this morning that while I have no idea who reads this blog, I know for sure my sister does - and I believe she has shared it historically.  And given I haven't spoken to her recently, and I have no idea who amongst her people has this link, I want it to be public record that the mistakes were mine.More that i was starting a project again where I wasn't asked. My not being able to learn my own lesson. That I created a victem where there wasn't one. That I was engaging in the same patterns. That I was disappointed in myself.

So on the off off chance someone is reading this that knows of the parties discussed:

a) shame on YOU if you repeated it. this may be public domain but it's still an unadvertised blog. If I didn't invite you here - you know full well I don't know you - so whyever the fuck did you repeat something to hurt someone else?

and

b) if you are the party discussed. I apologize. I was typing quickly and only realized later that my stream of consciousness blog tied you in with some fucking shitty-ass lazy people. You are not the person I was discussing. I am.