I haven't posted because I have nothing to say. Nothing I'm proud of that is.
I read other peoples thoughts and I am ashamed, I think. I'm petty. I'm boring. I write when it's late, or early. Thus i'm eiher tired or anticipating Eleanor. I don't use correct grammar. The things that are upsetig my lately aren't real. Thus why comment? I have a few favorite blogs. I read a lot but two stand out - prayig to darwin (she doesn't know me yet I love her mind) and The Cheek ogf God (who I feel I know better but am in awe of).
I very often now have only a few minutes online and so I read quickly - meaning to comment, wanting to sit and absorb. Instead I post a quick bitch and move on. I don't get a chance to let them know that I find their minds amazing and their writing style captivating.
And intimidating.
Other blogs I read, like aprils, discuss musicm thoughts, ideas, politics. And still other chronicle ther lives, their happenings.
I read of a world wherein people, these people, are living... feeling... thinking. Struggling.
Triumphing.
I just complain.
I have blog envy.
I'm neither as witty as some, as clever as others, as pensive, as introspective or as charming.
I'm not even cool.
I may be funnier in person.
In fact, often times I am.
But I have to be relaxed.
And that so ever so seldom happens.
3 comments:
You are being way too hard on yourself. Writing takes time. Reading blogs and commenting takes time. And that is in short supply for you. Do NOT feel bad about slacking off a bit. Live first, and the rest will flow from that.
For your next post, respond to this simple prompt. Just write for ten minutes, without editing, and let it flow . . .
"Describe the ten most relaxing minutes you've lived in the past week."
And sleeping doesn't count . . .
Be yourself, my friend. I'm here . . .
Oh man, who DOESN'T go through a big, ugly round of blog envy, once in a while? In my l'il 'ol opinion, you're doing some good work over here. You're funny, and I like the way you put words together. So there.
(BTW, wanna see something that gave ME blog envy?
http://bedrestbanshee.blogspot.com/2008/10/my-financial-to-do-list.html)
you have seriously negative bloggy image. blogs are for YOU, if you're not happy, hang it up. (but we'll miss you)
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