Right Here, Right Now...

The last several weeks have been tough. Not because my nephew is here, he's really no bother, just the incessant conversations, the amount of energy Ellie has, my being lackluster physically (I stopped doing Shred almost 3 weeks ago and sadly feel it)

Bad eating, bad sleeping, bad communication makes for evil days. The daylight is helping - the days being longer - and my nephew stayed with friends this weekend, so we had time to ourselves.

So the tide is shifting, and it's good. It's a good thing.

Plus the decision has been made to stay here so I'm starting to think, more seriously, or maybe I should say "rethink" how we use our office space and if there's a way to more efficiently live in the house. I know, really, it's never ending.

We haven't outgrown the space per se, it's the slow accumulation. Daily it seems we add. Little things. A sewing kit, patches, more yarn for knitting. Sippy cups as she outgrows the two handle ones, booster seats, different games. I keep the spending low, I yardsale, I buy "only what I need" bt there's always something small that needs to be stored. For example my hands are bleeding and cracking. So I bought soft gloves for moisturizig. $1 in the clearance bin at CVS, good quality. Surely a $1 well spent but where oh where do I keep them?

Whereforego the shoes at the back door? The hats? Diaper bags? All these small things that gather. And apparently multiply. The whole house is starting to feel crowded and it's anathema to me.

And that's been contributing to the stress as well. Everynight I wander like a dog chasing it's tail. Moving piles. Microorganizing. Wondering how other people seem to have time to watch a tv show, to facebook, to create and sustain hobbies and wondering why I can't manage NOT to have piles. And piles. And why I can't enjoy the nightime. So I ponder "what can I get rid of" This week it's some old (cheap) china my grandmother had. I kept what I truly valued but out out go the cups and saucers. And so be it. They don't make me love her more so why keep them?

So - and here we go AGAIN - starting the 15th (because I can't start anything on just "any' day) I'm going to start all over again. Streamlining. Dieting. Shredding. Managing. Organizing. Because although it's insane to keep trying to impose order, it's even more insane living without it.

This time, this time it's going to be different.